she thinks, she writes

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 02:51:28 GMT

ROSS ; want to go on a photoshoot?
Invite Dan and others too.

SAY YES !

First semester of school is finally over this week.
I always say I'd work harder each new semester, but I never get around doing it.
GO me.

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 02:50:56 GMT

leave me alone

Updating for Al ..

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 03:16:32 GMT

There's nothing to blog about anymore.
Most things just slide by me,
and i forget about them.. which is good.

Jacuzzi .. the hot tub,
melts me.

We can start applying to College applications now.
I have picked out my 5 college schools.
Most of them are 2-3 hours away from home.
My parents are not too happy about that.
As for me, I can't wait to get out of this town.
But I bet, by the time I have to move, I'll cry and cry
and think I made a bad decision to move away from home.

Thanks guys .. for caring

Tears rolling by

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 21:30:45 GMT

I cry and cry till my heart falls out,
till i feel no feelings,
creating a brand new river stream;
named tahomay.

It hurts, as if
having a tons of brick dropped on your feet
or scraping the knee after falling off your bike.
It may heal,
but scars will stay,
a memory.

Worst day ever this year.

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 16:43:43 GMT

what makes a journal entry intersting?

p.s
~~i hate you~~
I dislike you.

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 04:42:04 GMT

"hush little baby don't say a word"
"hush little baby don't say a word"
"hush little baby don't say a word"

"dont you cry"

everything will be alright

when everything comes crumbling down.
i'll be there.

i love you.

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 22:31:20 GMT

I'll come find you.

unless you dont want me to.

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 22:46:40 GMT

Why are people homeless?

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Im not the type of person that gives gifts on occasions such as christmas, birthdays or any other special occasions.
But as for this christmas I feel like buying gifts for people. I feel like giving. I feel like helping. I feel like buying gifts for those I do not even know; the ones who are in need. & I will.

Why do we give gifts? To show we care? Isnt the love we share with the people we love enough?

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 01:08:15 GMT

Tip me over and pour me out.

11th day, 11th month, 11th hour.

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 21:52:04 GMT

blessed.

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You'll never know if you'll be alive tomorrow.
You just got to live like there's no tomorrow,
and enjoy every moment of your life.

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 03:25:45 GMT

My lips are dry.
My feet are hurting.
My lips hurt.
My spare makes me do whatever I want. Yet I should just go to calculus and learn for next semester.

I took Ross' shift today. I got my uniform too, and I left my name badge on the apron! ahh... soo Ross if you read this, please bring it to me on wednesday :) thank you. Ooh btw, shelly was there today.

I still make so many mistakes at works. Im so mad at myself for that! gah. slaps.

I don't have work till saturday. Yippe.

It snowed today for awhile and it was sunny at the same time. I want it to snow so i can lie on it and make snow angels, or go snowboarding, or skating .. but then I want it to be warm so I wont feel too cold. Im tooo picky. Now if only the weather would go the way i wanted. Then it'd be so awesome!

I need some sense in me. Itd be awesome if i could write my whole day in a poetic way. It'd be so confusing to understand, that makes you wonder.

& people are starting shit again. From what they see. They should just be poisoned with blind potion. haha

Im so tired. I need sleep. Goodnight.

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 17:51:07 GMT

I've been listening to spice girls { viva forever } over and over and over again.
This song makes me smile so much, its unbelieveable. I havnet felt this happy for a long ass time.

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 03:09:53 GMT

updating ....

.. If only I had a place to upload pictures.

Inspire me someone =] please.

I got my first paycheck yesterday.

Chris; ty for everything.

a guy's gift.

jacket?

dvd scarface?

... help?

new layout

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 00:02:36 GMT

The school is having a trip for senior students to England. I convinced my parents to let me go. They're going to help me pay for it. While I pay the other half. Im excited. The only thing is I don't know anyone that is going to be going on this trip. Ah well. I can always always make new friends..... right?

I joined the newspaper club, and our article is due tomorrow. I havent wrote a thing. I took pictures to what I wanted to write, but I didn't even start it. I don't think I want to be in the club anymore. I basically wanted to do the layouts, but I think it went to someone else.

I love you so, baby
even if its once a month

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 03:27:19 GMT

I love this Lj user name so much .. but im changing Lj names.

Like I said I couldnt wait till today..

All day today I couldnt wait till after school.
Im sooooooooooooooooooooooo happppppppppppppppppy.
=D =D

I'll explain more later.

TATA

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 03:59:04 GMT

Thanks Marrisa and Anonymous :) Thanks for making me feel better.

I talked to the calculus teacher, and he said I could drop it if I want to but I can still stay in his class and keep learning and take it next semester. I think that is what Im going to do. I already got the drop course form and I just need my mom to sign it. My art teacher saw me all sad today and asked me to stay after class to talk to her. She actually cares. She said she usually see me all happy and today I was just sad and quite. She said if I need any help in math, she would help me. She wants me to pass and do well. Surprising.

At work I finally made a vanilla bean latte all by myself. I was so proud. I couldnt stop smiling. HAH. Its such a great feeeeeeeeelliiiiiiiiing when you achive SOMETHING! If only I could do calculus and then feel all happy afterwards.. maybe I can.. next semester.

I hope my philosophy mark stayed the same after todays test. Other wise I'll be below 70%.. thats horrible.

Im SOOOOOOOOO excited about tomorrow. I'd be smiling alll weeeeeeeeeeeeek.

IGNORANCE.. You got to love it .. JUST smile.

Btw. My hair is short now. I got a haircut on Sunday.

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 21:00:16 GMT

"She was staring at you for 10 minutes"
Okay so he did say it, but like I said it wasn't towards you. He threw a tin foil at Ross but it missed him and it hit some grade 11 girl. And she was just staring to see if he would say sorry or whatever. So that was what I ment. See what I MEAN .. some times people just hear part of the conversations.. and then it leads to something different.

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Im failing calculus. 39% . but then we're allowed to drop tests in the end of the course. There's one section I left blank and that section was worth alot, I could drop that in the end... so then my mark will be back up again. So for my mid term it'll be 39% for calculus. I don't know if I should drop this course so it won't affect my average overall. I'm still deciding. Damn I'm screwed.

I have tons of homework today and I have work. I will probably only be able to finish half of it all. I really need to put myself back in gear. Calculus has finally hit me. I never gotten so low in math since the day I started school. I already told my mom and obliviously she said I need to stop going on the net and concentrate more and even quit my job. Im so mad at myself for being a LAZY, non-caring, non-studying with school things.

update
"Calculus has finally hit me" WHO AM I KIDDING ! I gave up on my calculus and data homework. But I will continue to do my design homework. I don't understand a friggen thing in math now. Im lost. I think its time for me to get a tutor. But will that help? I don't think so. I guess its just up to me.

As of right now, I feel so horrible, so sad, sooo in need .. sooo not caring.. soooooooo whatever !!!.

Someone slap me back to reality, where I should be paying attention.

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 03:42:33 GMT

Im feeling better. Thanks =) I have this picture I want to post up, but photobucket made it so tiny. AH. Anyone know any good picture hosting site?

Ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want, and I will answer truthfully and fully. Then I want you to go to your journal, and copy and paste this, allowing your friends (including me) to ask you anything.

Stolen from

missmarissa

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 01:43:13 GMT

I vomitted today. Twice. First in the beginning of the family party.. and then again on my way to work in my dad's car. Guess who had to hear bout it? Ross! =) Sorry Ross. Hope I didn't gross you out. & I enjoy working with you too, it makes work not so boring since I know you already. AND too bad we don't have shifts together unless its weekend. Before I went to check in at work I went to BAY and sprayed myself all over with perfume so I don't stink at all =)My mom came to visit me at work once she heard that I vomitted again. During my break she bought me a new pant since my pants had dried vomit on it. & I need / want new pants anyways. ( I feel like Im spelling pants wrong ) I left out a lot of detail, and its better this way. Sorry if I grossed anyone out, too bad for you =p

I didn't go to Mike's halloween party. I had tons of homework to finish still and a test to study for. Plus I vomitted twice already. It was definately not a good idea to go out.

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 17:14:12 GMT

I love data class. Yet Im doing so bad in that class. Since it was the teacher's birthday we watched comedies on his computer. I really need to bring my marks up in that class.

Last night, Dana and I planned to go out, but it never happened.

I have work tomorrow. I will finally learn how to make every single drink on the menu.
& I have a family party to go to and I might be able to go to Mike's halloween party.

I have people who are pissed off at me for something I didn't even do.
Can you believe that Chris?
I can't wait to get out of high school and from all the "drama".

I cannot wait till tomorrrow

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 23:53:51 GMT

Mom said " You have to control yourself"

What she ment by that was: now that I work I seemed to just want to buy things, in the last 2 weeks I've been buying tons of clothes. My mom said I have to save money for college and residence. I've been saving all my life. But now, all of a sudden I just seem like I have no control, once I see something I like, I just want to have it.

These past couple of days, Ive felt so distance from my friends. I didn't even want to be near them, or even have any conversation with them. I just wanted to be alone. I didn't want to be bothered. Or tell them how I feel, like I usually do; even knowing some don't care, I just seem to blab. But recently, I stopped. I keep things to myself.

I know I mentioned this ten thousand times; but if I could go out whenever I wanted and have a curfew at midnight. I'd be one happy kid. I'd always have a smile on my face. I promise I would not do drugs or have sex. I'll still be a good kid. BUT unfortunately, I am zippo allowed. I'll be glad to finally move out and do whatever I want, and its okay to feel home sick.

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 19:53:27 GMT

I feel like Im going to vomitt my breakfast. I have to get to work by bus soon.
Bus ; such a good transportation =) nice bus drivers that says thank-you and tells you to be careful when your about to fall.

I wonder if I'll ever graduate from high school.

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 02:47:42 GMT

I took Ross' shift today. I learned how to make frozen hot chocolate and iced mocca. Although I am only 80% sure on it though. I have work again tomorrow. After tomorrow I have the rest of the week off.

I haven't been doing much homework and obviously that leads to slacking off with grades. Mid-term is in 2-3 weeks I believe, I got to start working again!

I wish I have something important to post about.

Sigh.

But you readers still like to comment, and read. I thank you for that =)

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 23:27:55 GMT

I have this feeling that I'm going to get fired any time soon.

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Sat, 23 Oct 2004 02:13:33 GMT

All I know how to make at work is cofee, ice cap, italian sodas, tea.. & I am still trying to figure out all the buttons for the cash. I actually had fun at work today. And even better I still haven't gotten a burn =)

Fuck data,
calculus,
design,
philo.

I skipped one of my classes today for the first time this year.

I haven't touched my piano again for a week. Im going to be in big trouble.

All I am looking forward to right now, is halloween.